I am very sorry to tell you this and after you've read this, please keep it safe or burn it. Do not tell anyone. Lily, you have been a very good sister of mine. Remember the time when I was patting your back and you tried to get away from it? Well, that was when I was trying to give you a memory of the past so that maybe you can understand and pick up a few things in there just like how I did with The Giver. ""Lily, " he asked that evening when his sister took her comfort object, the stuffed elephant, from the shelf, "did you know that once there really were elephants? Live ones?" She glanced down at the ragged comfort object and grinned. "Right, " she said, skeptically. "Sure, Jonas. " Jonas went and sat beside them while his father untied Lily's hair ribbons and combed her hair. He placed one hand on each of their shoulders. With all of
his being he tried to give each of them a piece of the memory: not of the tortured cry of the elephant, but of the being of the elephant, of the towering, immense creature and the meticulous touch with which it had tended its friend at the end. But his father had continued to comb Lily's long hair, and Lily, impatient, had finally wiggled under her brother's touch. "Jonas, " she said, "you're hurting me with your hand. " "I apologize for hurting you, Lily, " Jonas mumbled, and took his hand away. " 'Ccept your apology, " Lily responded indifferently, stroking the lifeless elephant." Pg. 101. You guys might have found my cloth by the river and think I drowned right? Well, I didn't, I escaped from the community! The Giver have arranged the transportation to get to the outer edge of the community and from there on, I took dad's bike and rode away to what I always thought it to be Elsewhere, where there's feelings and there's freedom, unlike this community. You must be wandering why I send this letter to you, it's really because I think you are the only one in which I trust the most. But what do you think that made me do all this? Do you think I was doing this for fun? No! I won't risk my life just for fun! The thing that made me do all this is mostly the feelings from lots and lots of the memories The Giver have given me. I think you should feel it too because it's just so good and it will also make you understand something really important, A life without feelings and emotions is a life that's not even worth living. That one reason why I want to risk my life into this. If I don't leave, then I won't really have a "life" anyways so I had to leave you guys all behind. I'm very sorry for all that anguish I have caused for the community.
Although I have to escape after I knew all this memories, I still had a very good time with The Giver. He was a gentle man that takes care of you. I liked the memories a lot (except for some of the really painful and bad ones), they really did gave you knowledge and I think that's how I came to understand that a life with no feelings is not worth living at all. So I also think this is another reason that made me think of leaving. Lily, when you meet our parents however, Please tell them that I'm all right and please apologize for me to dad for taking his bike. Did you know that our parents sometimes lie if they have to? Well you know when daddy have to take one of the two identical twins right, well, he killed it! When something's killed, it mean it died or what we call it release. "He killed it! My father killed it! Jonas said to himself, stunned at what he was realizing. He continued to stare at the screen numbly. His father tidied the room. Then he picked up a small carton that lay waiting on the floor, set it on the bed, and lifted the limp body into it. He placed the lid on tightly. He picked up the carton and carried it to the other side of the room. He opened a small door in the wall; Jonas could see darkness behind the door. It seemed to be the same sort of chute into which trash was deposited at school. His father loaded the carton containing the body into the chute and gave it a shove. "Bye-bye, little guy, " Jonas heard his father say before he left the room. Then the screen went blank. " Pg. 150 - 151. Wasn't that very mean of our dad?! I'm not trying to blame him but I just feel oddly sorry for our dad and I also feel sorry for the poor baby although we can't have two exactly same person here in our community but they could have at least not kill it and maybe even send it here! Anyways, a life that's controlled by the others are definety not a life I want so that's the last big reason why I want to leave here. Of course I didn't even want to leave if I wasn't forced to do so because I didn't even want to suffer all that hunger and the cold! But at least I learnt a lot about the wild and I also learnt what freedom feels like. I hope you can understand all this Lily, you to me is bright enough to realize what I think so if you ever decide to leave, then I'll see you there from elsewhere!
The two reasons for the quote on Mrs Narsiman's blog are that first, when Jonas knew how to transfer memories, he felt freedom and also when he for the first time, never to take the pill again, he felt freedom too. Why? It's all written down here...
First up, memory transfer.... He felt freedom because he had never knew he can do that and when he knew it, he can then experience something he didn't know and it wouldn't be noticed or found out by any other people. The reason why I said so was because to me, I was be really excited about something new and exciting things that no one around me know. To me, that's also like a freedom for my soul too (it's sort of hard for me to explain more because I for some reason just can't express what I want to say in any languages so I just stopped there... :( ) I also thought it would be a pretty surprising thing since you didn't know you can do that and I think that really the happiness of found something I always wanted or I've never knew before just makes me feel good and free...
Next up,the pill... "The next morning, for the first time, Jonas did not take his pill. Something within him, something that had grown there through the memories, told him to throw the pill away." I think he did that because of all the memories he have received from the Giver. I also think he felt freedom because since it's his first time not doing something that he normal would do like the pill which he and everyone in the community should take. Instead, he threw it away. I think it was because of two reasons. First, I think he have really just made a choice on his own. He had and choice of having the pill or not to do that and he chose not to do so because like it said, something within him, something that had grown there through the memories, told him to throw the pill away. I think when he made the choice, he have pretty much just tried something new and I think it was because of all the reason I've said above for the first reason. The second one is similair because it was his first time too of not taking the pill that he should have normally. The reason it pretty much the same so I'm not going to repeat it anymore.
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Once, On a nice Friday in 1956, 3rd of September, when I am walking home with a heavy bag pack on my back toward my house in the hot, Egyptian desert, I suddenly fell into a large hole. At first, I thought it was quick sand but as I sank through it helplessly, my foot touched something. It was hard and because my shoes was burning from the heat above, it suddenly cooled down. I tried to climb up and to my total surprise, I went out of there easily without hurting myself! After I went up, I looked down at the hole which I thought was quick sand. There’s nothing there except for a pool of sand. I went back down the shallow hole, and as soon as I touched the sand at the bottom, I started to dig sheepishly. I haven’t even dig for 15 seconds when my hand touched something cold and hard. My brain instantly told me they are some stones. I begin to brush using my hand and after a while, a nice looking cartouche appeared in front of my face. I know a bit of Egyptian so I tried to read it. It said something like D-E-B-I. I threw the stone beside my bag pack and went back down. I hardly have begun digging again when I found some pieces of paper in the sand. I took it out. It was yellow with age and some of them was ripped and some was cut. But after some hard time looking at it, I finally made out the word “poor” and the word “stone caver”. I jammed those papers into my pocket and I started to dig again but this time, I found nothing else so I decided to leave. When I got up, I knew from the sun that it was evening for it’s going towards the west. So I throw my bag pack onto my back and started for the rest of the way back home.
Dear Diary, 3rd of January,
Today was a very peaceful day when I woke up because I remembered that today is the day where all the stone carvers get a rest. But for me, stones are like my money. Without stones, I’ll definitely starve!! So, as I wore on my filthy, muddy cloth that’s full of holes which is made out of hard linen, I decided to go for a walk down the Nile so I can pray to the god. As I came near it, I saw a weird looking rock. I have being working on carving stones for 10 years and I’ve never seen these rocks alone the Nile. It was golden and it felt heavier than other rocks that I use the carve statues and carthouches out of. Since I’ve never seen this rock before, I just kept it in my only pocket on my cloth that doesn’t leak and walked on. It was a very hot day today and when I reached the Nile, which was really just 50m from where I found the weird rock, I’m already sweating like mad! But no wonder how hot I am, I just kneel down onto the warm sand alone the Nile and prayed to the god of the water, hoping it won’t flood that often. After the praying, I went alone the bank to trying real hard to relax. It was just morning and after a short distant walk, I picked up a large, flat stone and went home, thinking of what to do with the stone. When I entered my door way, I went straight toward my bed since it felt really soft and comfortable. The room isn’t a very big house but unlike the peasants who’s working out there right now in the hot sun, I can do whatever I want and I’m free from slavery. There isn’t much in this small room but at least, I have a bed made mainly out of straws and leaves. It actually feels really good at night! Anyways, other than my bed, I have a stone table a stone chair made by two very large stones that I’ve one found in the river. As I’m working on the stone, which was thought by me to be and base of a cartouche, I heard from my window the cry from the peasants and the yell of their masters. I live alone the bank of the Nile alone with the peasants since I thought that was easier than living in the downtown which most of my friends choose to stay. I go there sometimes to buy food but other times, I just buy the food from the slave masters. Now I’m nearly done with the base. It was pretty cool inside my house so I can at least concentrate on what I’m doing without getting annoyed by the heat. But after a while, I remembered that I haven’t eat breakfast yet! So I went fumbled through the straws and brought out a bag of grain. After putting some grain into the clay pot I’ve built before alone the bank of the Nile, I went toward the vegetable bag. To my dismay, it was empty. So after some thinking, I decided to buy some food in town. After a long, hot walk on the sand, I manage to see the town which is buzzing with excitement. I started to walk but only for a few steps before a peasant bumped right into me! At first, I was very angry because I got hurt and and my leg bruised, but just before I was going to blow off stream, I saw something that the peasant was carrying, FOOD! I quickly forgot my anger and helped him up. I asked him if he was OK or not and I saw a big cut on his leg too. I asked him what happened to your legs and Nebnefer, which is the peasant’s named told me that when he woke up this morning, he cut his leg on the wall. I also asked him why didn’t someone help you but seeing the painful look on his face, I asked no more and helped him to my house. After we arrived at my house, we were both exhausted. I quickly helped him onto my bed and I ran down toward the Nile for some water for the cut and some water to drink too. After I got back, I was really tired. I splashed some water on Nebnefer’s leg and while I was doing so, I thought about someone who can actually heal Nebnefer’s leg. A thought dawn on me. The doctor! The doctor in town! I was about to set off again when I remembered how tired I am. So I sat back down on the stone chair and drank some water. Nebnefer was already asleep and I saw that the bleeding was a little bit better. After much resting, I decided I must do this thing to help the peasants since they’re so poor. So back I go toward the town to find the doctor. After I got to town, I went straight to the house of one of my friend, Methyethy. Methyethy is a doctor I know because I have once cut my hand on a very sharp stone when I was carving a statue for the Pharaoh’s temple and when I went to town to find a doctor a few months ago to find a doctor, Methyethy saw me and healed my hand without making me pay a lot of money! After I went into Methyethy’s house, I told him everything. Before I even finished, he jumped right up out of his chair and dashed out of the house. I was right behind! When we got back, Nebnefer was awake. Methyethy told me to go out of the house and wait outside but since I feel like having a swim in the Nile to cool down myself, I obeyed almost instantly. When I got to the water, I didn’t even hesitate to jump into the water. The water felt really cold but on such a hot day, even the water was heated up. But the water’s cool enough for me anyways. I stayed there all the time until when the sun is directly above me. I’m beginning to feel real hungry since I still haven’t had breakfast yet. So I jumped out the water and went back toward my house. While I’m walking, I collected some sticks under some trees so I can get a fire going straight away if I need it. When I entered the house, Methyethy was packing up his medicines and I saw that Nebnefer’s left leg was covered with white bandage. I asked the doctor if he want to stay but he refused the invitation. The food wasn’t the best food in the world but it can at least fill my stomach. Nebnefer gave me lots of food so I can at least last for some day. The main food was rice grown just outside of my house, some meat from camels, some fishes in the Nile and some vegetables roots from other plants in which I can only buy them in town. After the meal, I said good bye to Nebnefer, which got his leg chopped off, and went to my bed to finish off the cartouche for him for the rest of the afternoon. In the evening, I went out beside the Nile to get some “paint” from some special, little plants and went home to color my cartouche, which got me all dirty some after dinner, I went for a bath in the Nile and went back to my house, ready to spent the rest of my day for sleeping.
Dear Diary: 15th of January,
When I woke up this morning, my muscles felt different. I guess it was probably because of all that hammering from yesterday because I was finishing off another cartouche for a slave owner. Anyways, I also felt that today, I should also go to the temple and pray to the Gods of Egypt. I decided to go to the temple of Hathor. It was a really long way off from my house but since today was surprisingly cooler than the other holiday 12 days ago, I didn’t even feel the heat wave when I stepped out of my house but it might be because it’s morning. The temple of Hathor was 60km north of Luxor, on the west bank of the Nile and from my house to there is about 2km away. I put on the dirty, linen cloth and I went on. Since it’s a really far walk, I decided to amuse myself as I’m walking. So I begin to recall the holiday 12 days ago when a peasant got the injured leg. It was really hot that day too and as my thought came up to the part where I was finding stones in the morning on the 3rd of January, I suddenly remembered the weird rock that gave off that brilliant flash of gold color when I picked it up. It was pretty smooth too. But no matter how hard I tried to guess what it is, there wasn’t one answer that seems to be suitable to the rock. After a while, I decided to ignore it and walk on.
In fact, the day wasn’t cool at all! It was even hotter than the other day as the sun slowly rose from the sea of sand on the east of the horizon. I guess I’m just up too early that it was still cool. Now, I can see the temple of Hathor in the distant so I walked quicker than usual. Before I enter the door of the temple, I knew from the look and the noise level that today is going to be a big day. When I went inside, I saw lots and lots of people waiting to pray to Hathor so I went toward them and we all waited there together until a guy came out from a huge, heavy and golden door and asked us all to come in. As we went inside, I saw a gigantic statue made out of a hard, golden colored material that makes me remembering the golden rock I’ve found. We all at once kneel to the ground and started to pray to Hathor. After we were done, we all went outside. As I was going out, I sneaked a look around the praying room. The whole entire room was filled with fire torches and the walls also gives off a brilliant golden flash and some of them have paintings on them. The room was really well lit and as I looked up, I saw the beautiful ceiling. The ceiling was carved by some of my other stone carver friends and from the four familiar small statues at the corner of the ceiling, I recognized one of them that I have made years ago on the top right corner. As I went home, the day became even hotter but while I was walking, I have other things in mind to even bother the hot air around me. When I got home, I collapsed onto my straw bed. I was tired and dehydrate. I quickly ran to the Nile and got a bucket full of water which I’ve brought home to drink. As I lay there on my bed drinking, I thought that I should also pray to the sky God, Nut. So I went back to the bank of the Nile and I prayed to her. Nut is the God of the sky and she was the one who made the extra 5 days on Earth. On that 5 days, she gave birth to 5 other gods like Orisis and others and her real name was really Nuit. As I finished praying to her, I saw a well dressed business man. I stood up and went toward him. When we came toward each other, I asked him what’s your name and he said that his name is Ani. I also asked him what does he do and he said he is a jeweller. I didn’t quiet understand what a jeweller is because I never even bothered to think about those people since I’m not that rich so I asked him what jeweller means. After a great deal of explanation from Ani, I still don’t get it. The only thing I think I understood is that those people collect minerals and rare rocks like gold and diamonds. But I ignored my lack of understanding and invited him to my house because I can see that he looked a bit hungry and it was getting near to midday anyways. After he went through my door way, I immediately asked him to sit down on the stone chair. I went outside again to collect some sticks and then, I sat just around my door way and I went back in to grab my clay pot. After lunch was ready, I went back in with the food and we ate together, laughing and joking. After lunch, I went to the Nile to wash my pot. When I came back, however, I found Ani staring at something. I put my pot on the stone table and went closer to Ani, who turned to look at me. I can see from his expression that he was really surprised about something. Then suddenly, I saw what Ani was looking at. It was the mysterious rock I’ve found the other day! I asked him if there’s anything special with that rock and when he said the answer, I was so shocked that I nearly fell over him! Luckily, I caught myself just in time. The thing he have said was gold! I can finally become rich! Ani then asked me if I’m willing to sell this to him and I agreed for a bigger house space and a garden. But before I gave this big chunk of gold since now I know what it is, I decided that I should decorate it. I should make a sign out of it! I decided also to make a Ankh out of it since Ankh was a very good symbol. Ankh is a symbol that represent eternity life and that was my most favourite symbol. I worked really hard for the rest of the afternoon but because gold was hard to carve, I still didn’t finish it when the sun started to drop down for what promised to be a cool evening so I went back to my house from the Nile alone with the unfinished gold chunk. I lie back down on my bed and thought about my day. Suddenly, I remembered that the Opening of Mouth ceremony for the death of one of the government officials was today and it was on this evening! I leaped to my foot and I thought that I should go and have a look around the place where the ceremony would be held. In town. The ceremony already started long before I arrived at the center of the busy town. The town isn’t usually busy at night but today, almost all the people who lived in or near the town came to the ceremony. From the point where I was standing, I can see about 5 priests standing inside the huge circle of people around them. One of them was holding a adze, a thing used for carving wood, and she, which I recognized to be a female, used that to touch the mouth, nose, eyes and ears. I remembered that such a move was meant to wake the senses of the person who’s dead. I went and stood onto a near by rock to get a better view for I was serial rows behind the front row of people. As I continued to look, I saw a few people alone with some of the priests standing on the left hand side from my view got a few rings of flowers from the scribe behind them and at the same time, them all went towards the coffin and put the ring through it. I also heard a few woman wailing a chant and the priests chanting a potent spell. After what seems like an eternity, their voice finally trailed off and I heard some people crying. Then, the priests, in a loud voice, said the ceremony is over and we can now have a feast around the coffin. The word feast reminded me that I haven’t eaten dinner yet and I’m hungry. So I decided to join those people, who didn’t really seems to mind at all, and I had a wonderful time eating and chatting too with some new people I’ve never saw before. After all, I went back home. It was already very dark and when I arrived back home, I felt very tired. I went to the Nile as always to have a bath but this time, I only bathed a short while for I’m scared that I’d fall asleep right there in the Nile! As soon as I was back, I immediately collapsed onto my comfortable straw bed. I was hardly on the bed before I feel all droopy and sleepy. I also felt very greatly honored that day too. After all, I was really worn out so I spent the rest of my time in a deep sleep.
Feburary, 6th
Today, as I woke up, I somehow feel really happy. I got onto my feet and got myself dressed. As I lift my bucket that was used for water storage, I heard the cracks of wipes and the groaning sound which I think came from a slave who just got beaten. I walked faster. The morning was very cool and I really hoped that today wouldn’t be so hot. Anyways, even if it’s hot, I can still go for a swim in the Nile to cool myself down. In fact, I have done this before with my good friend Nebnefer, and it felt so good! As I scooped water into my bucket, I saw Ani walking toward me. Ani is also one of my friend now and I was thinking if I should ask him instead to go swimming with me today since I saw that the slaves are quite busy today. I greeted him and he greeted me back. We both walked into my house and I showed him the gold piece in which I have carved into a Ankh. Ani said that the pharaoh is probably going to love this and he told me that in a few days, I can move to the outer town where a bigger house is waiting for me. I would probably prefer my old house but after a great deal of thinking, I think I should maybe move. Today, I realised was really a holiday, but to me, everyday is a working day. But since I’m feeling very good and happy today, I decided to play in the afternoon instead of sitting in my house carving stone all day. I had a wonderful breakfast with Ani and the good thing is, Ani also agreed to swim with me in the afternoon. After Ani was gone to go to town, I got out my stone hammer and I went to the Nile to find some stone. Today, I decided that I should carve a statue of Orisis and sell it to the temple owner which he can put the statue later in his temple. I began frantically kicking stones and throwing them until I found what I was looking for, a large stone that’s about the size of my head. I went back into my house carrying the stone and I started to carve. The stone was really easy to cut so I guess I’ll be done by lunch time. I also wanted to carve a carthouche today but I don’t know if anyone needs it. Maybe Ani does but I bet he probably have one already. I carved and carved until my muscles hurt. I decided to take a break because the statue was half finished anyways. I went to my bucket of water and took a long, good drink. It was really refreshing. I went to my bed and rested on it for a while but I thought I should better get to work before it’s time for lunch. For the rest of the time before lunch, I worked really really hard and finally, when the first wave of hunger hit my stomach, I stood back and examine my beautiful work. I’m done! I lifted the heavy statue and dropped it in a corner where I’m going to sell it tomorrow. I went to my storage bag and got out some grain. I went outside and collected some sticks and I got my pot out too. Today, as I wished, wasn’t as hot as the other days and I’m quiet happy because I can hang out outside longer. I went to the bucket of water and as I lifted the bucket, I discovered that there’s a fish in there! I have never ever caught a fish in the Nile before and I was startled. I looked at the fish and I thought maybe I should cook it since I’m short of food today and I would pretty much like a fish for lunch. I fumbled through the bucket of water and finally, I caught the fish. The fish was a normal one but it was a very big fish. I think I can share this with Ani if he was here. Anyways, I threw the fish into the giant pot and I dumped half of the water in the bucket. I’m thinking of making a delicouise fish soup today. I put some rice in there and I sat down to wait for the water to boil. After some times, my fish soup is ready. I lifted the pot up and drank straight from it because I was ready hungry when the good smell of the fish soup hit my nose. It taste just as awesome as it smells. As I drank, a thought dawn onto me. Maybe I should catch more fishes with the bucket for fun in the afternoon. I can also cook it for tomorrow or something and I won’t be easily short of food anymore. I also thought Ani might like it too. So after I ate half of the fish and drank some more soup, I decided that we can try catching some fish while we’re going swimming. I cleaned up my cooking area and went to my bed. I thought maybe I should rest so I can play well in the afternoon so I lie down and slept. Knock knock KNOCK! It must have came from the door! I opened my eyes and I knew immediatly that it must be Ani. I stood on my feet and I went outside. Ani was waiting and when he saw me, he said that he can go for a swim today but he won’t be here for dinner because I told him yesterday that you should come and have dinner tonight. I nodded and said that’s alright and we both went to the Nile. As we went, Nebnefer saw us and told us to wait for him. He came shortly dressed in his usual dirty linen cloth and all three of us wadded into the Nile. The water felt really cool and refreshing and we started to splash water to each other and play. I swam around them because I felt very happy. But after some time, Nebnefer said he have to go or he’ll get beaten so we said good bye to him and we went back to swimming. As I swam, I remembered that we can also go fishing, so I went up the bank and told Ani that I’ll be back soon. I ran back and got my bucket. I ran to the Nile again and I jumped right into the water. I splashed onto Ani and he splashed water to me back. I told him that we can go fishing now and to my surprise, he told me that he knows how to fish! We fished with the bucket for a long time before we all got tired. We both went back to my house and since I don’t know what else I should do, I decided to play Senet with Ani and that was really lot fun. We played all the way till we were hungry for our dinner. I forgot that Ani wasn’t suppose to stay for dinner so I cooked a very big fish. But when I do remember that Ani isn’t staying, I was really sad! Anyways, I ate dinner and for the rest of the day, I decided that I should sleep since I think it’s so very tiring today.
My question is number 1 when Jonas learns all about colors, he claims "it isn't fair that nothing has color". Why does he say this? Answer/Response: Well, my response to this question would be that I, first, have two reasons why I think he said so.
First, I thought he said so because if he can see colors, then he can have a choice for example buying a red T-shirt or a blue one. But when he can only see black and white, the only difference he would notice is that the red one is slightly darker than the blue one but who would really care if the red one is darker and the blue one is a bit lighter? It won't stand out either so when someone was trying to find Jonas and he was really wearing a red shirt, someone might easily confuse the blue and the red and end up with another person if they can't see their faces. There was this quote from the book where Jonas said that the world with no colors is unfair and he wants to make choices of his own. "'It's the choosing that's important, isn't it?' The Giver asked him. Jonas nodded. 'My little brother--' he began, and then corrected himself. 'No, that's inaccurate. He's not my brother, not really. But this newchild that my family takes care of--his name's Gabriel?'..., '...and he could choose?...'" Pg. 98.
The second reason why I think that a world without colors is unfair is because without colors, the humans would have lost so many wonderful things and many other wonderful thing to see to because we can't see any color. It's also unfair because we have lost such a great ability from our eyes too. I thought it was also very hard to make things out especially if you were drawing and all you would draw is probably black and white pictures instead of those colorful painting I did in trimester 1 in art with Mrs Paz. It's also because color would take away most of our choices. "'...I want to wake up in the morning and decide things! A blue tunic, or a red one?' He looked down at himself, at the colorless fabric of his clothing. 'But it's all the same, always.'" Pg. 97.
I also thought that Jonas's world, the world without colors would be boring too because since I like art and I got A+ on it, then I like pictures and from my point of view is that Jonas's world would probably miss out all those great, colorful paintings made by those famous artists. Even just trying to calm yourself down by looking at the setting sun or something won't work out either because there won't be any colors for their eyes to see except for from black to white. Boring isn't it?
Well, that's all my reasons why I think Jonas said it was unfair because if I was his, I would have probably said the same thing to The Giver myself too! Here's the difference between color and no color...: (These trees are different but you can still see the differences...)
I have chosen question number 1, would I like my future to be controled or not? Why or why not?
Well, to this question, I think I would say no. I have three reason why want to say no too. Firstly, I think I don't want to be controlled because I still want to be myself and make my own choice all by myself although that could mean I might make a wrong choice but I also thought that I probably don't want to be controlled by someone and in the end, having a life that's not really even mine although I'm living. I say that because it's basically the person who's arranging me doing all the thinking but not me.
Secondly, I thought if my life was all predictable, then I guess that my life won't be exciting because I won't have much surprises since I would already know what my whole life is going to be instead of been surprised by a lose of job or a job that's totally out of your prediction. I also think that you wouldn't have much feelings at all such as sadness because you have failed your test or happy because you have finally got the packet of Lego you really wanted for years!
Thirdly, and last of all, I think I don't want a predictable life because I thought that won't involve much thinking. If people don't have much thinking, then people will probably easily get bored and maybe they won't be that smart either because their brains can't work as fast since they are not thinking too much. I also thought is would be stupid too especially when you thought that the person who thinks for you made a wrong choice for yourself but you are not able to apply for a change or anything. If that's so, then my life wouldn't even be mine!
That's all of my reasons why I do not want my future to be predictable. But sometimes, I also thought that's a good thing too since anything have a bad side and a good side. I thought it might be good because then, I won't make a bad choice when I don't know which choice I make only!
